Ten Lists to End 2010: Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now

My friend Mariel came up with this and I think it’s an outstanding way to end the year.

  • Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now
  • Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
  • Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
  • Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
  • Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
  • Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
  • Day Seven: Four turn offs.
  • Day Eight: Three turn ons.
  • Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
  • Day Ten: One confession


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  1. I should have told you I loved you 31 years ago, but that was just not in my emotional tool box back then. But, you were so very right: we wanted each other before we even knew what that meant. And now…
  2. There’s a reason I don’t answer my phone when you call. I’m not here to save you every time you make a stupid mistake and really, you make a lot of them.  You REALLY need to make a serious inventory of yourself. I think you’ve spent your life playing the victim – nothing’s ever your fault – but if you’re victimized by anyone, it’s by yourself. Stop waiting for others to clean up your messes and take some responsibility for yourself. God is not out to get you. You are.
  3. Three years of sharing a bed with you and not even one ounce of love, lust, passion or affection directed towards me. There had to be other healthier ways to learn about the value of compatibility. As far as learning to be asexual, I’m sure I could have just DJ’d in a topless club.
  4. I grew up with the shouting. I guess that’s all I knew and all I passed on. That and no small amount of bitterness. I didn’t learn to administer the hugs and snuggles and love until much later and pretty much, by then, it was too late. All I can keep saying is “I’m sorry” and even if I added every adverb in existence, it would still be woefully inadequate. Just know that I love you very much and that I am sorry.
  5. And while I’m on the topic of sorry, I’m sorry that you are collectively so sad and resentful. But with the play clock winding down to zero, maybe it’s time to try something new, like listening, or being accepting or stop being so small and petty.
  6. You really don’t know how good you have it right now. Really.
  7. Thank you for this opportunity. I know I’ve told you before but I envy the hell out of you. I wish I had just a smidgen of your drive.
  8. I envy your drive too. I just wish you’d take a little better care of yourself. I know you probably don’t want to hear that from the former “Mr Five-Martinis-A-Night” but still, you got too much promise to waste it being wasted… or having your diabetes get worse.
  9. Stop being a chicken shit.
  10. It’s time to nut up or shut up. Stop making excuses. Do what needs to be done.You can send your life being afraid of it and then live in the regret of not doing what you wanted to.

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